I don’t know if I can take note of this in a short summary. As of the moment, I just really want to write about Love… well, my love life. most women are suckers for love right? lol. we have always adored romance. Let me talk about my own experience. it sounds too dreamy but it really happened to me, to us (my boyfriend) . Some people think that younger people than them starting from childhood at least until the age 23 are not capable of truly loving. my boyfriend is 11 years older than me. I’m 21 and he’s 32. they didn’t believe we could ever last seriously for so long. It feels so good to prove people are wrong right? but I felt even better proving that I love him more than proving people we could last even longer as they think we can. I feel so blessed to have this honor of experiencing a love that people see that can make a really good movie. there’s love, romance, action, drama, comedy and nearly everything in a film you would really be interested to watch. I don’t over exaggerate my life. that’s just how the way it is. my life seems so interesting except that you would never want to be in my shoe. It sounds fun and exciting. something you would really be curious about if I talk about it but you would never dare try to be me. because, well, my life is far too complicated.
This is what I posted in my FaceBook account on the week of our 10th monthsary (the first one in the tagalog and one I tried my best to write in english:
nung nasaktan ako na realize ko na ang gusto ko lang naman pag natuto akong mag mahal ulit … ipaglalaban nako. yung kahit ano pang pagsubok o tukso ang dumating, mapatutunayan talaga na hindi ako ipagpapalit at lalong lalo nang hindi ako iiwan. given na na masasaktan eh, kahit gaano kaayos ang pagsasama. kay Anthony Ray Manalo ko yun tunay na naramdaman 🙂
inlove na kung inlove… given din naman na iba’t iba ang opinion ng tao sa relasyon ng kapwa nila. may positive, may negative din. alam ko siguro cheezy nga pero… totoo na may mga panahon na pag nagka tinginan kami sa malayo pakiramdam ko parang tumitigil ang oras. pakiramdam ko kahit na ang daming tao sa paligid namin, parang kami lang ang tao ng mga panahon na yun. yung pag nagkangitian kami sa malayo parang nakapag-usap na din kami ng matagal. na kahit na nasa magkabilang dulo kaming magkatapat sa napaka habang hallway parang ang lapit-lapit niya. Secret hand signals lang at body language nagkakaintindihan na. halos kabisado ko na bawat buka ng bibig nya kahit na walang boses na lumalabas. dun palang, malawak na ang pagkakaintindihan. tuwing nadadapa, magsasaluhan. walang nagpapabaya. masasabi mo na alagang alaga talaga kahit na hindi perfect. kahit na kausap ko siya mula umaga hanggang gabi walang kasawa sawa ang kwentuhan. pag baba palang ng phone, isang segundo lang miss na kaagad. pag nag goodnight, parang sana pag natulog ako 1 minute lang gising na, may araw na para maka skype agad ng umaga. ang bilis ng panahon kapag masaya ka sa piling ng taong mahal mo. sampung buwan na din pala? sampung buwan na ako alagang alaga. sampung buwan na nakakalipas nung sinabi niyang mahal niya ako ….. sampung buwan na din niya napatunayan yung sinabi niya. sa dami ng masasakit na nangyari sa amin, tama nga sila nung sinabi nilang success story ito. nakakatuwa din isipin. totoo palang may lalake na kung tratuhin ka parang dyamanteng mabilis mabasag. ingat na ingat. kasing takot din mawala ka sa kanya. parang ang laki ng halaga ko talaga. para din akong miss universe kung mang bola. kahit na nasa pinakamatabang timbang nako, sexy pa din “daw” , o kahit na ang sama na ng itchura ko kasi ang wasted ng dating ang ganda ganda ko pa din “daw” … pero, damang dama ko naman! haha. ganun siya mang bola. kasing effective ko! haha 😛 parang ako lang ang magandang babae sa mundo. ang pinaka. para ngang ako lang ang babae sa mundo eh. hindi ko naman aakalain kasi hindi ko naman inaasahan. gustong gusto ko sa kanya yung ugali niya na totoo. hindi niya sinasabi kung ano gusto ko madinig galing sa kanya. sinasabi niya kung ano talaga ang gusto niya sabihin. kami, hindi kami perfect couple pero… ito yung ideal. hindi yung ideal na sinasabi nilang tipong parang pangarap lang. ito yung ideal na katotohanan talaga. tuwing may pinagdadaanan kaming paghihirap sinasabi namin sa isa’t isa… for better or for worse. pero hindi lang sa salita. mayroon kasing pag ibig na puro bibig lang ang ginagamit. ito, pati sa gawa.
sana forever nanga talaga to. pero hanggat mahal niya ako. sasagadin ko na , susulitin ko pa. haha 🙂 kasi, mahal ko din siya ♥ mahal na mahal na mahal :”)
When I got Heart Broken really bad I realized that what I truly wanted in a relationship is that if ever I would love again… this time I want to be fought for. That Even if great big trials and temptations come our way my guy could honestly prove that he would never choose someone else who’s more attractive over me. and most especially, prove that he would never leave me. It’s really a given thing that we would all get hurt in a relationship somewhere down the road whether in purpose or not, even if the relationship you’re in seems very smooth. It’s in Anthony that I have truly experienced what I thought was impossible in love this way.
yes, you can say that I’m too in love. but that doesn’t matter to me at all. It’s a given that every person has his or her opinion about others. there’s a positive reaction as well as negative reaction. maybe it would really sound cheesy and infact it is but .. It’s true to me that there are times when we meet eye to eye from afar when I just feel like time stops right there and then. I feel like although we’re in a room full of people, It felt like it was just anthony and I inside at that very moment. I always have the feeling that even if we’ve just met eye to eye in a distance It just always felt like we’ve already talked to each other for hours. Even if people tried their best to separate us end to end within a very long hallway it was like he was still standing so close in front of me. I can see his whole being.with only secret hand signals and body language we always understood each other. we’ve memorized each other so much that we could talk without using no voice at all and still understand each other. with every movement his lips made, I always understood what he wanted to say. with just that, you would know that we truly understood and know each other so well by heart. every time one of us falls , we pick up each other again. we guided each other’s back. Even if we talk from morning until evening we never ran tired of talking, we had good conversation all the time. whenever I say goodbye and put my phone down, in just a minute I already miss him. whenever we say our goodnights, I just still couldn’t wait for the night to become day for just a minute and then I’d be awake to talk to him and see him in Skype right away every single morning. time really flies so fast when you’re happy in the arms of the one you love. We’ve knew each other so well in ten months. I didn’t realize it was ten months that he has taken very good care of me, ten months that passed since he first revealed he was in love with me and ten continuous months that he has proven he really truly loved me. can you imagine it was already ten months? despite of all the painful circumstances that happened to us , people were right when they said this love was really a success story. I feel so good just thinking about it. I never thought it was possible for a guy to literally treat you like you were a very fragile diamond that he was very afraid to break. he was always so careful. because he was also as afraid to lose me the same way as I’m afraid to lose him. I just really felt very precious and priceless. I just really feel like the Miss Universe of his life. he knows that I’m at my heaviest pound, I can’t even wear my two-piece but he would always compliment me and say I’m really sexy. or even if I look so horrible at that moment he would always tell me I was so beautiful and I really felt that I am. I see it in his eyes. In the way he looks at me. he always describes me that way. he always makes me feel so beautiful. that I’m the only beautiful woman in the world. THE MOST BEAUTIFUL. infact, he makes me feel so special that at times I seem to feel like I’m the only woman existing! lol. I never thought this would ever happen to me because I never expected it to happen in my life. I really love how genuine of a person he is. he never says what I want to hear from him … he tells me what is really on his mind, what he really wants to say. anthony and I are not “THE” Perfect couple… this is the ideal one. not the ideal relationship that everyone see’s as a “dream relationship”. Our relationship is ideal because It’s reality (not dreamy) . with every hardships and obstacles we go through in life we always remind each other that we can make it through by saying “for better or for worse”. not just through words just for the sake of saying it . we make it a point everyday to really prove each other that we can stay and be in love and love each other for better or for worse.